Came across DearGod's Mv on A7x website. It's a new mv for an old song I think, first time I've watched it.

Lyrics:

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again.

*All rights goes to Avenged Sevenfold, I own nothing but my life & adoration to the band.*

Wellllll, had a pretty rough night after a really fine day. Sooo fucked up right? haha.
& Only now then I saw baby's post. I feel like shit, worse than shit.
First was family, then some fcuked up nightmare ruined my sleep. & now this.
I dont want us to go downhill, baby. But what I'm gonna say now,.. I have no clue already.

Dearest.
This word has lost its meaning for me.
What is that for anyway there are so many of them for you.
When you're my one and only dearest.
No other 'dearest's.
Dearest. Don't you see?
You're my everything.
But now, I see those things..
Perhaps you didn't mean it.
But.
This word has lost its meaning for me.
Twice is enough.
I apologize.

I apologise.
Since you put it that way already, I've got nothing to say.
I seriously feel like a pile of dung now. Ugh. Everyone, Just leave me alone.

All I ask for, is to be a happy kid.
Stop sucking my life out of me. It hurts.
I've had enough. Enough of heartaches.
Why dont you just end it. End my life.